Scared, but not too scared
I’m scared to publish my book. But that’s because my life has gone in series of waves – and I think it’s a lot to do with being a woman – one minute feeling totally invincible (thank YOU Spice Girls and my often inappropriate and wise older sisters) to suddenly suffering from a cripplingly anxiety that comes with being a young woman publishing something that might be deemed “inappropriate” or “not very lady like”.
Over many centuries women have been classically conditioned to believe that is a bad thing to speak up, through deep-rooted cultural expectations of how women should be. That we should sit down, look pretty, and ssshhhh. The book might not be very “lady like” but that is precisely my point. I don’t want to be ladylike! I want to make rude jokes, overshare about all sorts of things, and call out those times I’ve felt uncomfortable, precisely because it is so much easier to stay quiet. I wrote this post a while back, while sat at my parent’s kitchen table, reminiscing about the time I was obsessed with Liverpool football club, wore boys pyjamas and had all the tackiest football merchandise including a duvet for my bedroom, I had it all. I had no idea it was “meant for boys”. I just felt really confident wearing it, because I just liked it. It really really was as simple as that. As you get older, things become more complicated and you start to become very self-conscious about a huge variety of different things. But when it comes down to it, your gender or any other part of you should never hold you back, or determine what you’re allowed to like.
I am writing my book because I want to. Because being scared of speaking up about lots of different parts of being a young woman on the Internet shouldn’t stop me from actually speaking. Not speaking up about things because I’m “scared of what people might think” wouldn’t be very feminist of me. And as my friend Katie has said recently “the power of wanting to write something often overtakes the fear of how it might be received” and that is what has happened here. That is how I’ve ended up writing this book. Future Me might even cringe over it in a few years, but hey, 2016 Me thought this was a really really good idea at the time. Life’s too short not to mix it up a bit, isn’t it? So hang on: I’m not scared, I’m excited-scared. There’s a difference.
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